Watched Stay Alive yesterday. Creepy. Took many many pics =D After which, headed back to Dom's place. Vodka peach and raspberry! Yummy!!

My one week holiday is burnt because of the entrepreneurship programme I'm currently in now. It ruined my entire's week study plan and I've to stay in hall because the damn programme starts at 9am and ends at 5pm. I miss home. I miss my air conditioned room. I miss my cosy bed. And most importantly, I miss the snacks and food at home.

Now I've to trouble dear to accompany me to sleep over because I dare not sleep alone. Call me timid but seriously, I can't imagine some unknown species standing beside me or whatsoever. Creepy! What's not, my toiletmates are not around too. Pathetically lonely. =(

Fortunately, I've got a very sweet darling who is willing to travel all the way down to Boon Lay from Changi and relinquish her comfy bed just to squeeze in a little bed with me.

I can't wait for darling to reach here. We are both gonna have our favourite chicken chop with black pepper sauce! So exciting! I'm starrrrrving...

Dear's not returning my call. I'm very worried cos it's late and she's not home yet.

Where are you, darling? imu

Celebrated 10th yesterday. Shopping. Movie. Black Angus Steak House. And a romantic walk at the beautiful Esplanade.

I heart the mocktail, Shirley Temple! =D

Happy 10th baby.

Powder blush shattered into pieces. Organic Chem test was disastrous.

Bad start on a Wednesday morning.

It's just bad luck. Ain't in a mood to think or do anything.

Awaiting for your grand arrival. A sumptous meal ahead. I see food!

Hungriness, be gone.

BAH! Water splashing is fun!! Hahahaha!

Gonna spend 4 consecutive days with love. =DDD

10:49 PM

Thank you for the pink daisy, the cookies and cream chewy and the beancurd sushis.

You're the sweetest. =) I love you.

I AM FREAKING PISSED AFTER MY FRIEND BROKE OUT THE NEWS TO ME THAT SHE OVERHEARD THAT STUPID LAB TECHNICIAN BAD-MOUTHING ME AGAIN. THAT IS TWICE IN A ROW! AND MY FRIEND'S LAB SESSIONS ARE ON FRIDAYS WHILE MINE ARE ON THURSDAYS. DOES SHE HAVE TO GO AROUND TELLING PEOPLE STUFFS ABOUT ME WHEN I OBVIOUSLY DON'T SEE ANY LINK BETWEEN ME AND THE OTHER LAB GROUPS. WHAT IS HER FUCKING PROBLEM WITH ME? WHY MUST SHE KEEP PICKING ON ME WHEN I DID NOT DO ANYTHING TO PROVOKE HER?! WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?!?!

BLOODY HARLOT. MAY SHE ROT TO DEATH AND BURN IN HELL.

I paid for my school fees.. but I don't know why I've to suffer such humiliation like this. School really sucks.

Took this photo the last christmas. Dined at Sushi Tei (what's new anyway. both of us simply adore the yummilicious food there!) Look how tanned I became cos of NTU's netball camp! See see see! That tanline on my chest is really.. UGLY!

That christmas, I had my first temporary hair perm at Fareast Plaza's Hair Profile. Dear paid for it. And I received a Samsung D500 handphone as a gift from her too. She dotes on me. =D

Sweet memories.

I can't wait for this Christmas to come. =)
Will you always be my santa?

Dinner at Sushi Tei was good. I love the food there.

Seems like I haven't been shopping for ages. Went to shop til I can't stop!
Things I bought:

1. A pair of jeans from Giordano - it's cheap anyway
2. 4 tops from Zara - amounted to $100+, I don't even know! Just felt like buying lotsa tops lah! I heart vintage =)

Oh and I managed to spend the 50 dollar GUESS voucher. Dear helped me with it. I can't find any top for myself so Dear got a GUESS shirt for himself. lol.

But last night was a bad day for me as well. Been having bad bad days. =/ The car key died on me. So I wasn't able to drive the car home. Dad had to cab down to PS to pick the car up and fetch me home whereas Dear had to cab home himself. Darn the car. I thing it just hates me. BLAH!

I want..

1. A pair of jeans - any cheap and nice one for my lab will do
2. Shiseido foundation in natural light ivory
3. Eyelashes from DoDo club
4. To spend the 50 dollar GUESS voucher

by tomorrow. =D

You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you
Shadows bleeding through the light
Where's the love once shined so bright

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

Is this really the end of us?

12:22 PM

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart

I wish I could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life seems so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow can bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long, lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too?
Does the feeling seem oh, so right?

And what would you say if I called on you now?
And said that I can't hold on?
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

Ooh, what are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of

Jagged Edge - All Out Of Love

I don't know why I'm feeling depressed - again. I messaged Dominique on MSN but apparently Dom went offline on me.. I've no idea why things are turning out this way.

It's always me. I don't care for you enough, not sensitive enough, not polite enough, never spend enough time with you, etc. Yes, all and all its my fault. Whatever I do is not enough. I've studies and trainings to manage and I've tried my very best to make time for you but I guess it's just not enough. After all these while, after all the things I've done for you, after all the explanations, you still chose to think that my life don't make a difference without you. I feel extremely helpless now.

Apparently, my sister likes going against me. She critises whatever I do or say without fail. All of it hurts me but I chose to pretend not to hear it and put up a strong facade. But am I not worthy of her respect? I'm still 2 years older, right?

Everything is just not going right for me. Relationship, trainings, family, lab(screw that lab technician). I should just kill myself one day. My existence in this world is redundant.

The Devil Wears Prada was good. Anne Hathaway is drop-dead gorgeous! Love the designers clothes and heels. She carries them off so well.

Had creamy pasta with lotsa and lotsa cheese for dinner. After the movie, we went for a mini shopping trip. Dear bought an esprit shirt for me! Thank you baby =)

You made everything feel so right.

Bad bad Thursday. I hate Thursdays.

First, lab was disastrous. Got scolded by a bad tempered lab technician multiple times. Lab was ridiculously long - took me 6.5 hours to complete the whole damn experiment and only to realised that I've forgotten to take the melting point of my compound. My supposedly 1 hour of break was ruined cos of lab. No time to pee or eat at all!

Second, training was just as disastrous. Someone tripped me when I was running, fell down and landed on my chin which caused a temporary pain at the back of my head. Now my chin is bruised and swollen. I think some might even mistake it as a big black mole or birthmark. YUCKS, damn gross please.

Seems like yesterday was Thursday the 13th for me. Freaky, very freaky.

I hate Thursdays. I hate lab. I hate the big black bruise on my chin. I hate doing starjumps. I hate being mentally weak.